Slow Burn

It begins with a dark, glowing ember
Something black, burning its way out of me
Searing the flesh, pain is the only thing I feel
Scars all I seeOh no, the fire's burning my insides again
What can I do to silence my desire tonight?
Face consumer reason leaving all the ashes there
You won't catch me for granting my decisionI can't keep telling myself
What I wanna hear
I can't just close my eyesI know that it's killing me
And it's poisoning the best of me
But I say I don't want to believe
So let me tell you, boy, tell you, boy
About the lies I leadThat is how it kills, I got some flames and gasoline
Broken teeth replace the blackout memories in my head
Wreckage from the blast, it often shakes me to the floor
I know it's over but I can't go home tonightAnd after this I feel as empty as the night before
Feel the pain and yet I'm still begging for more
Masochistic, nihilistic, gorging, wrecked up thoughts
My life's a mess and I can't find a way to fix itI can't keep telling myself
What I wanna hear
I can't just close my eyesI know that it's killing me
And it's poisoning the best of me
But I say I don't want to believe
So let me tell you, boy, tell you, boy
About the lies I leadCalling, calling out
The darkest reaches of my soul
I'm riddled with self-doubtCrawling, crawling out
My will to fight will more than suffice
While others will lay down
It's only as dark as you make itI know that it's killing me
And it's poisoning the best of me
But I say, I don't want to believe
So let me tell you, boy, tell you, boy
About the lies I lead