Waiting in the Wings

So here I am, I'm a man and that little boy
Tied down deep within me
-you have broken your word!
I'm sorry that I bowed once again,
And let the monsters loose
You can't understand it, you can't understand what it's like
The world which we live in
Feel I'm tearing up inside I'm loosing my mindOne look and the clown in the mirror says:
Hi -i'm still here waiting...
And time is no longer on your sideA part of him dies, another one lives in the mirror...... and his legacy reigns
But I won't follow you
In the shadows I cry
Closer to heaven I failI still remember the words that the little boy
I once was, were told:
Son, order rises from fear!
Oh, how I swore I'd fight what he was
And I'd never be like him
I was such a fool, an ignorant fool to believe
A man can control how he's living out his life
Or change anythingOne look and the clown in the mirror says:
Hi -i'm still here waiting...
And time is no longer on your sideA part of him dies, another one lives in the mirror...... and his legacy reigns
But I won't follow you
In the shadows I cry
Closer to heaven I failSo here I am, I'm a man in a cynical world
Filled with compromises
-a tyrant sighs in the mirror
I know now I've been weak and afraid
And turned the other cheek
He knows I can't stand it,
He knows I can't stand that I am a pawn in his puzzle
And still waiting in the wings, the ghost of my pastOne look and the clown in the mirror says:
Hi -i'm still here waiting...
And time is no longer on your sideA part of him dies, another one lives in the mirror...... and his legacy reigns, but I won't follow him
In the shadows I cry, alone so close to heaven...... and his legacy reigns
But I won't follow you
In the shadows I cry
Closer to heaven I fail